19.1.2014

19.1.2014

11:16 PM

Long time no see, hahh?

A year already, right. Things have come and gone so quickly that I could not manage to get hold of all of them. 

I still find my life a complete mess. Everything is not in its right track and is getting out of hand. Still, I'm just wondering if things will come just fine to me afterwards. 

I admire them, them who can use English so naturally as if it were their mother tongue. By 'them' here I mean Duong Anh and Mr.Truong Giang the Perfectionist. Ok I admit it; I love, no, I L-O-V-E, with all the words in capital, their every single status in English. One's natural, and the other's some kind of professional combined with emotional and, of course, natural. It's always been my dream, really, to write things in another language so easily like that.

Maybe that's the reason why I love using English these days; or maybe I'm completely immersed in it. That feeling of being on my own when talking to myself in English is too damn great. Some may see me as a complete moron, but just let them be; I'm perfectly fine with my own zone. 

Just read what I've written all over again and still, it's not up to my expectations. I want it to be informal and natural, but somewhat it's still that formal, that sophisticated, that academic-writing-like. Yet when it comes to academic essays, something starts burning in myself making me want to express all my thoughts in an informal way, say, like speaking. 

Kinda weird I suppose. 

Still, this is a huge improvement, and I appreciate my own attempt to create this little piece of writing.

Just wish for the best.

Anyway I've just estimated my national test's mark. Max is 125 and min is 105, and clearly I'm out of that third-prize reach. 

So I'm hoping, no, more like praying, for me winning the consolation prize. 

Just a prize please.

I don't want to stay here enjoying Tet knowing I'm empty-handed. 

11:30 p.m. already.

Night, my small cosmos.